Today is the 18th October 2008 . Alright . . . knew i haven't been posting for too long so here i am doing some updates . As for Hong Kong trip and Singapore Hot Import Night, there're just too many pictures to be uploaded . The whole thing would take me more than two hours and slow down my web page, it takes up more than 1.5GB of my thumbdrive . Yeah . . . that much .

Anyway, school term starts again, means end of clubbing life, fun things and back to books and books and books . Not complaining, just whining about why i need to do all these when i'm not certain if i can excel anymore . But anyway, let me finish the diploma and then to decide about the future . =/ .

Dear went to the dentist and got his wisdom tooth out, so here i am over at his place in place of his part-time nurse . Haha, nah, not nurse, just doing what i'm suppose to do and what i wanna do as his girlfriend . Get well soon, my dear . =) .

New semester, new modules, new lecturers, i kept on telling myself . . . know my limits, know my limits, just get it over and done with . I really wonder if i can do it, i mean, there're just too many things tempting me to play or worse, stop studying . Clubs, alcohols, holidays, cars, getting high and so much so much more, it's hard to resist, even harder when i know how each of those tempting things let me have fun and that i've experienced it before and not yet tired of it .

I'm 18years old, and this partial freedom thing . . . is just the start of the fun, i wonder what happens when the full freedom comes at 21 . Stocks ? Investments ? If it's so then it will be real big stuffs . Whatever, better stop thinking about things far away, i don't wanna get old so fast, i just wanna stay at 18 years old, enough to club and drink, lead a life like a bed of roses that, is, all i swear . Well, i could say i'm not really tempted by cash, if i were, i wouldn't have Dear as my boyfriend, i've got guys with Merc coming up to me, but i thought, the more the money, the more the financial trouble you have . I mean not only financial troubles, other troubles, don't ask me what, because if you think it logically, many possible troubles would come to your mind .

Okay, so enough of money matters . My mind is so full of clubbing and trance music with alcohol . What should i do ? I can't seem to focus anymore, like ever .

I fell for the trap and now i can't move, not anywhere . Who'd be here to save me ?